Time to say ALOHA!

OK, so after the farewell party yesterday and packing 4 large suitcases (that's 200 lbs) of stuff I can't live without, but couldn't ship, today.... I have been wandering around the house and the yard and remembering everything we have done in the last 15 years in this house (I have never in my life lived 15 years in one place) it is hard to leave. I grew up in a military family and we were raised to be able to leave things and move on, but when we moved we always had our family. Now my family has extended to my friends after all these years and I won't have them. I can "keep a stiff upper lip" and have been telling people all weekend about amazing technology and Facetime and Skyping and it will be like we are not gone... but we are. I have always been the strong one in my family, the core of my family. So now allow me to ramble....today, my 86 year old neighbor Isabel was taken to the hospital with a possible broken hip, my wonderful friend and neighbor Monica's mother is in the hospital with major complication from diabetes and Kelly across the street let us know she is 21 weeks pregnant (we saw them married and through the birth of their two sons)... I will miss my neighbors so much and the buyers of our house are so lucky... my daughter and son in name, Celly and  Josh dropped by to say good bye and tears rolled... Monica, I will miss you and Gary so much and I am sorry you were crying and i know you wish us only the best, Carolina, my beautiful daughter is so sad I am leaving and I'm not sure she will come out of her room and say good bye, I went through my nightly ritual with Layla one more time "Layla, I hope you have the SWEETEST dreams ever" (and she echos it with me), My son seemed so sad and I can't fix it, Astrid thank you for bringing me snacks for the flight and I will see you in August... I hate causing pain to those I love and yet I hope it can be mixed with joy for my future.... I get to see John tomorrow... Wednesday is our 20th anniversary.... I have no idea what my future holds but if it holds people who I have come to care for so deeply and they keep holding me close I will consider myself fortunate. For now, thank you for reading my ramblings and I wish you aloha for now and this picture of the sunset from our lania yesterday is my gift to you. I will be in touch... I promise (and I am usually one to just let things go) I promise.